Hey!! I did it. Thanks so much NightmareMom!!

Thanks for the help, in inserting my animation!!

I'm doing ok.

I'm still hanging on. I thought, I'd let you see me, since I'm sure, we will all be friends. Today is Thursday, 12/28/06. Seems like, I'm thinking a lot about the past. I've met some great friends on AOL, that I'll remember, all my life. I went to my oncologist yesterday, LOL, no not for the cancer but for polycythemia. It's a condition, I have that I make too many red blood cells and every few months, they sometimes have to drain a pint of blood, luckily, not the case this month :-) I also have diabetes and emphysema. Yes, I am a mess, it seems!! I really think The Lord is teasting me, at times but my faith never changes. With Him, all things are possible and that's why I know, I'll beat this cancer yet. Wishing each of you a safe and Happy New Years and may only good things , come your way. Till next time,Barbara

Days are going slow.

Usually my days are fast. This waiting is begining to get to me. Today is only December 27 and I have to wait another two weeks. LOL, I'm the kind that if you're gonna shoot me, please do it now, don't wait. It's like sitting on a time bomb. Blessings to all.Hugs, Barb

What I do to stay focused.

I love PSP and animations. They are my get a way.

The shock

Monday, December, the 18, 2006, I awoke as usual and preceded to begin my day. I have emphysema and wasn't concerned, as I began my morning coughing. Soon through, I was staring at bright red blood , that I was coughing up. Oh no, I thought, I have to call my doctor. I did and was told to get to the hospital for lung x rays.The next day, I was admitted to the hospital, for a broncoscopy. Right after the broncoscopy, my doctor told me, Barb, it looks like cancer. What!!! Had I heard him right??? He said for me to come into his office on Friday, December, 22, 2006 for the results. I went to his office, understandably nervous but with courage in what I had to face. He said, that during the procedure, I was coughing and bleeding so much that I would have to have another broncoscopy on Jauary the 9th.  He also said that he is 95% sure that it is cancer .Today is December the 23, 2006. I will follow this up soon.